Without setting out to, I’ve somehow become a cookbook collector. I read them front to back, taking in new tips and techniques, even for dishes I’ve cooked many times. I find myself flipping through them while I watch television, missing major plot points in favor of insights on a new marinade or superior seasoning technique. Recently, though, rather than opening something new, I carefully pulled from the shelf a black notebook falling apart at the seams that had belonged to my paternal grandmother Ruth Sikes Orr, better known to the residents of Monroe, North Carolina, as “Toodie,” a nickname she’d had since childhood.
Toodie, who died in 1999, was known for many things, but cooking wasn’t necessarily high on the list. Not because she wasn’t a wonderful cook—she made dinner for her family of six every night, and her Thanksgiving dressing is the stuff of legend—but she was more likely to be remembered as the person you wanted beside you at the table, someone with a sharp sense of humor who left everyone feeling in on the joke. There was hardly a kooky story or embarrassing anecdote that couldn’t be laughed off. “They’re ours, and we love them,” she’d reply, a simple phrase that meant we accepted our people for who they were—and we seemed to have a lot of people.
Cooking was primarily a tool to bring her family together, at least for a few moments around the table each day. For many years, Toodie kept the same menu every week: pork chops with field peas and spinach on Tuesdays; spaghetti on Fridays; Campbell’s soup with fruit on Sunday nights. The menus became so deeply ingrained that years later in Atlanta, when my mom invited my dad’s sister Ruthie over for a casual weeknight dinner, she declined immediately upon hearing that meatloaf was on the menu. Ruthie told my mother it was because she didn’t like little green peas. “Your mom was like, ‘What? I’m not making peas,’” my dad recalls with a laugh. “I had to explain to her that for us, that whole meal went together.”
Like any good cookbook, you can spot the most popular entries by how many drips and stains adorn the page. Her barbecue chicken certainly counts among them: The recipe calls for peanut butter, an ingredient that surprised me and my father, despite the fact that he vividly remembers the dish as an after-church staple. “You mention that recipe and I’m right back there in the dining room,” he says. “I can see the little bits of celery, the Sunday clothes, down to the damn wallpaper.” His other sister, my Aunt Liz (Elizabeth, always, to Toodie), was less phased by the ingredient list—she’s been cooking it regularly ever since she went home to Toodie’s one weekend years ago and copied down those handwritten recipes in her own all-caps scrawl.
Whether cobbled together in a falling-apart notebook, scribbled on scraps of paper in my family members’ kitchens, or intertwined with their memories of Sunday suppers and school nights, these recipes feel like a stolen glimpse into the life of a woman I wish I’d had more time to get to know. And at a time when many of the splashier events in life feel like they’re being postponed or taken away, the routine these recipes represent serve as a reminder that some of the best memories are made in the mundane moments—the little green peas, Sunday night soup, the cardboard cutouts. Fancy or not, they’re ours, and we love them.